Beauty

I got lost tonight on the way home from the gas station that is about 2 miles from my house...how did that happen you might ask?

Well, I live in the middle of no where, in the middle of the desert, where people don't believe in street lights or reflective street signs. It occurred to me tonight that I have become my grandmother at the age of 30, I no longer want to drive at night because I literally can't see, even with my brights on!

I usually take pride in my sense of direction, you know I always seem to find some sort of landmark so that I know where I am and where I'm going. When I was little, 3 or 4 years old, my mom worked at a restaurant, I had been there twice. My auntie Gina, who wasn't really my aunt, had to pick my mom up from work one day but didn't know how to get there, so I guided her by way of the trees, I remembered all the trees that lined that road leading to the restaurant. So you see, I should have been able to find my way home....

Tonight was a different story, I got scared not being able to see and not knowing where I was. Serves me right for trying to go one block over from where I started from..I should have just gone back the way I came, but nooooooo I had to try a different route. I ended up back tracking almost all the way back to the store until I finally saw a street sign that I knew would get me home.

As I pulled into my driveway I thought to myself "Self, if we move to another state, please let there be street lights or I'm not going!". Yes, I yell at myself all the time and make deals with myself too, none of which I ever keep!

Nevertheless, when I got out of my truck and closed the door I looked up and almost had the wind knocked out of me. The beauty of the night sky has always been my favorite thing next to cookies, cocoa, fudge (yes, I'm craving chocolate) and kisses from my kids.

There is something about the Arizona night sky that makes me feel small, but also like I'm so tall I could reach up and touch the stars and maybe catch one if it fell. If we move I will miss the beauty that I don't cherish enough of just a simple thing of stars in the sky......