Perspective

Today Mark embarked on an adventure all by himself to a state that will not be named for a something that will not be talked about for fear of a jinx, sooooo...that left me and my little man to hang out all day, ALONE! For two months now it has been the three of us all day everyday. I miss Mark, when he's gone it really puts into perspective how much Nate and I really love having him around, ok so sometimes Nate more than me..but you know husbands have a way of on occassion getting under your skin, just a little bit....right?

No?

I'm alone in this?

So for my day with Nate we woke up bright and early, ate some cereal, watched some Scooby Doo (8 episodes) and then went to rent the Disney movie "Up!" and a movie for mom, "The Ugly Truth", hilarious by the way, but totally predictable. "Up" was great, Nate now wants our house to float in the sky with balloons and a talking dog! Everyday that little man says something new that makes me wonder where the heck he gets things from? Oh, well, wait a sec..maybe he gets things from me? Hmmmmm going to have to work on some ummm choice words... maybe that'll be my goal tomorrow, create a better language for my boy..lol..

Speaking of tomorrow I have 2 choices, work with Nate here at home orrrrrr....take the day off and not work? Orrrrr.....take Nate to daycare and then come back and work? What's a girl to do????

Photo Dump Monday

One Year Ago......

Two Days ago....

*and to give credit where credit is due...I owe the idea of this post to Ms Janana Bee, go check her out!*

Good Bye Toys

Well it's more like good bye to one toy....this one...

Yes, we sold the bike this weekend...it was a sad day, not as sad as when we sold the Harley, but still a sad day.

So many changes so fast, I long for a quiet period in time where we don't have to wonder or worry about what bill to pay and what not to pay...

Well, at least we have our sense of humor! Nate provides a daily dose of "nate humor", he is quite the ham these days and his new favorite saying is "hey, look at me!" followed by a dance, a cartwheel, a sommersault, a song or a monstrous growl with his hands hooked like claws...he mimicks every animal and any bug that makes a sound, Bees are currently his favorite! He's our sanity even when he's driving us crazy!

Thank GOD for this boy...

Beauty

I got lost tonight on the way home from the gas station that is about 2 miles from my house...how did that happen you might ask?

Well, I live in the middle of no where, in the middle of the desert, where people don't believe in street lights or reflective street signs. It occurred to me tonight that I have become my grandmother at the age of 30, I no longer want to drive at night because I literally can't see, even with my brights on!

I usually take pride in my sense of direction, you know I always seem to find some sort of landmark so that I know where I am and where I'm going. When I was little, 3 or 4 years old, my mom worked at a restaurant, I had been there twice. My auntie Gina, who wasn't really my aunt, had to pick my mom up from work one day but didn't know how to get there, so I guided her by way of the trees, I remembered all the trees that lined that road leading to the restaurant. So you see, I should have been able to find my way home....

Tonight was a different story, I got scared not being able to see and not knowing where I was. Serves me right for trying to go one block over from where I started from..I should have just gone back the way I came, but nooooooo I had to try a different route. I ended up back tracking almost all the way back to the store until I finally saw a street sign that I knew would get me home.

As I pulled into my driveway I thought to myself "Self, if we move to another state, please let there be street lights or I'm not going!". Yes, I yell at myself all the time and make deals with myself too, none of which I ever keep!

Nevertheless, when I got out of my truck and closed the door I looked up and almost had the wind knocked out of me. The beauty of the night sky has always been my favorite thing next to cookies, cocoa, fudge (yes, I'm craving chocolate) and kisses from my kids.

There is something about the Arizona night sky that makes me feel small, but also like I'm so tall I could reach up and touch the stars and maybe catch one if it fell. If we move I will miss the beauty that I don't cherish enough of just a simple thing of stars in the sky......

It's My Thursday

For everyone else (that works a M-F job), today is your Friday, symbolizing the start of, I'm sure a much needed, weekend. For myself, today is my Thursday, because I have funky split days off, tomorrow is my Friday and Sunday is my Saturday and then Monday is my Friday again, and then Tuesday is my Sunday..somehow that sounded much better in my head? Anywho, I get to start packing this weekend, where are we going you might ask? Honestly, we have no idea, we just have A LOT of stuff that needs to be thrown away, I mean boxed up :-). So, that is my task to go through all the crap, I mean stuff, and box, box, box away. I'm beginning to see a trend in my life, I am but a simple nomad, I should start carrying my stuff in a shell on my back, but I guess t hen that would make me a hermit crab right?

All I know is that I seem to move every 2 years or so and wherever we go next I hope we get to stay there for a while.

Did you all know that it's November? I mean really? Where did this year go? I feel like the days just keep going by faster and faster and I am so not ready for any Holiday festivities. Anyone know of any good holiday music that will help me get in the "mood" for Christmas? I'm open to any and all suggestions!

Happy Friday everyone! TGIT for me....hahahahaha..ok, yea that was lame.... :)

Bad Day

I should be all ecstatic right now...my Yankees won their 27th World Series last night!! I could have done without the "we did this for Mr. Steinbrenner" speech, but whatever, they won..FINALLY...only took them 9 years..lol..

But no I am in a crappy mood, I'm stressed out and people are not being nice today and I'm tired of being scared, of not knowing and even though I'm doing everything I can to hold it together today is just one of those days where I'm cracking and trying not to fully fall apart....

I think I'll go do some math homework..that always seems to calm me down! I know I'm weird....

Game 6!

I am watching Game 6 of the World Series,...and biting my nails...


Can't focus...must watch baseball.....


This will be a two-part post....to be continued...

I am NOT a Monster!

I had today off, as I usually do since it is a Tuesday. I decided last night that we should all go to lunch today, ya know a fun family outting. Which it was, surprisingly Nate was very well behaved and ate his entire little kid pizza! I decided that I would try something new (why I continue to torture myself, is beyond my comprehension) which was HORRIBLE and Mark had a yummy pizza all to himself. I had a plan going in to the restaurant! I would not eat the same thing, I would find something else to try, against my better judgement. So, after lunch, we came home, argued in the car about how best to get Nate to sleep in his own bed and should we eliminate nap time during the day? My answer of course is keep the nap time, Mark wants to ditch the nap time. And the saga continues...

After the arguing I decided I wanted to give myself a mini-facial, to give myself a small amount of pampering...I just wanted to look like this...

And I did for about 5 minutes and then I did the unthinkable...........................................................

I opened the door leading from my bathroom into my bedroom and there is my lovely, sweet, perfect angel of a boy and he says......"AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MOMMY'S A MONSTER!!!!!!!!" So I did my best not to crack the mask that I had so carefully slathered on in the hopes of getting rid of the impurities, only to loose it completely when he said and I quote, "Momma, going to get treats now? Her Halloween mask on".......yea so much for relaxing.....

Just when you need it!

I have always known that things happen for a reason, that those reasons are sometimes bigger than what we may be able to comprehend at the moment and every now and then I am reminded why I have the friends and the family that I do. I don't always know when or why, but I always get a message of hope or love just when I need it and a lot of the time it comes in very unexpected ways. I don't talk a lot about prayer or faith, most of the time I save those for my darkest hours and I usually keep those to myself...but I know that prayer works and I have faith that the Man upstairs is taking care of me and my family.And to him I say, I am listening Lord, my ears and heart are open and whatever you have planned for me and my family, I can take it.

So, on this next leg of my journey, I hope you'll stay with me, it may be a bumpy ride, but as my grandma used to say, if it was too easy, it wouldn't be worth it....or something to that effect...(miss you grandma)....

Happy November First!

I forgot to pop on yesterday to wish everyone a Happy Halloween, so how about a Happy November 1st!

Halloween was fun, we took little man out trunk or treating at a church function. He didn't quite know what to do, the people were very sweet and would come up to him since he was so shy. He made out like a little bandit (as my mom would say)! Mark was going to dress up as Shaggy since Nate was Scooby Doo and I was going to be Velma, but time did not allow me to search for the perfect Velma costume, so I donned a Witch's hat instead :). Here are some fun pics from Nate's first REAL Halloween..enjoy!

Marks attempt at being Shaggy :-)..."A" for effort!