Monday, September 15, 2008

Searching for the light in the dark

It's been 2 weeks and 3 days since my mom passed..I keep riding this roller coaster of emotions hoping at some point that it will slow down. I have been trying so hard to get a grip on my emotions, however just when they seem to be in check its as though they ripped right out of my grasp and all I can do is try to hold on for dear life and ride it out..I wrote a poem for my mother the other night while cooking dinner, sometimes its strange places when inspiration strikes...

When night falls and I'm alone with my thoughts
inevitably they turn
to you..

I think of days gone by and I feel
overwhelmed with emotions
Wishes for one more conversation,
one more laugh,
one more I love you...

Life goes on around me in slow motion
it seems..simple tasks
searching for gifts at Hallmark, a nail file catches my eye
"Home is where Mom is"..the world spins
I begin to cry

The words echo "Home is where Mom is"
Yes, you are home and I am left behind
searching for light in the dark...

I miss you mom, so much it hurts...


  1. Mesa, I am soo sorry for this pain that you feel. Try to remember when all the lights seems to have gone out there is One that can light the way!! :) Love you!

  2. You are an amazingly talented person. My mom says your mom was a really good writer as well. You need to be entering in some poetry competitions. You have a great talent!!

  3. Wow.

    Mesa...again. ((HUGS))

    I understand. Really do. Some days are harder then others. It's been sad because it's getting to where my father has not been present for half my life. But we put one foot forward, and smile for our child. And be for them what we don't have anymore.

    I heart you and your blog and glad we've been bloggy buds!


  4. I never read that..that was amazing! I hope it gets easier one prayers stay with you when you are ever down...writing is a good outlet you should def keep doing it, you have a way with words...I felt every emotion..