Of the Arizona sun...This Sunday my son and I will be departing to Michigan, where (in case you haven't heard) it has been snowing.. A LOT.. my boy is EXTREMELY excited for the snow, he has never experienced the snow, but he's seen pictures and movies and thinks he's going to have a grand ole time, which I'm sure he will...me, well as long as I can keep my feet dry I will be a happy camper!
It's December, but it doesn't feel like it to me, usually around this time I would already have my house decorated and the tree decorated and I would be making cookies everyday and fudge and corn flake wreaths and no-bake cookies and sugar cookies to frost....not this year, I'm leaving all that to my in-laws and I am going to do my best not to stress out. You see me and Christmas haven't been getting along for a few years now. I do my very best to make it a happy time for my children and loved ones, but on the inside I am usually crying my insides out (and occassionally, the crying is on the outside too just when nobody is looking).
I miss my family. I miss my mom, I miss my grandma, I miss my cousins, I miss my grandpa, I miss my aunt and uncles, I miss my friends, I miss being happy at this time of year. I want so badly to recapture that joy, and I know eventually I will ( keep saying this every year).
Right now, just for today this is who I miss the most...
Grandma, Aunt M and my mom
My grandma and me (1 yr old)

Top (my dad -age 2, my grandpa-age 30)
Bottom (my mom and dad- ages 22 and 24, my grandma, my dad and grandpa- ages 25, 4 and 28)

Dad (long hair), grandpa and uncle

My mom and dad Sept. 1977