Mommyhood, life as a wife and good times with family and friends..

New Blog

2011-05-18T00:09:00.000-07:00

http://psycho-logicalexp.blogspot.com/

Changes

2011-02-16T16:47:00.000-08:00

Well ALOT has changed since the last time I wrote.... I'll run down the laundry list of changes...

I'm no longer married, no longer a stay at home mom, no longer living in Indiana, and haven't been for the last 5 months. I'm now living in Las Vegas, going to school, working full time, and in a relationship with a wonderful man. My son is with his dad in Indiana which is by far the hardest part of my life at this moment. I cope by watching videos of my son that I recorded on my cell phone before I left. I'm planning a trip to see him in a few weeks. Anyway, this part of my life..mommyhood and life as a wife...is no longer... so I am switching to a new blog format from a different point of view. I will post the link following this post.

A Horrible Teacher

2010-06-05T06:48:00.000-07:00

I have got to get this off my chest!....I am a firm believer that teachers have one of the most important jobs on earth, they have the ability to change lives and shape a person's mind by teaching. My favorite aunt and favorite uncle are both teachers, amazing teachers, and inspired me to want to teach. I believe that I will teach one day, as soon as I finish school. So with all of that being said let me share with you my experience with the University of Phoenix's online campus called Axia College.

I began my academic journey in January 2009, I am graduating in August of this year and could not be happier to get out of this school. I did not have a terrible experience, but it is one that taught me more life lessons about people than I cared to learn. I was stalked by a former classmate, I had several students plagiarize my work in several different classes, I had some terrible teachers and some pretty awesome teachers but those were few and far between. Now that I am in the last stretch of classes my current experience with my PSY-265 instructor Yvonne Stephens is one that I will remember forever, simply because she is without a doubt the WORST "teacher" that I have ever met or had to deal with. The woman should not be allowed anywhere near a classroom, online or otherwise. She is lazy and vindictive and has targeted me and singled me out and made me feel sick to stomach about going into that classroom forum. Here is the story....(I would've posted a video explaining, but I don't want to cry on camera)

When I started PSY-265, Psychology of Human Sexuality, I was pretty excited because this instructors bio made it sound as though she was going to be an active participant in class and was excited to teach us; however, 5 weeks into class I realized that this was not the case, she took no interest in the discussions, took no interest in any of the assignments, basically it was the easiest A I would ever get. I am not one that likes the easy A, I am paying a BUTTLOAD of money for my education and I demand to be taught. So, I asked in an extremely nice way for the teacher to please interact with us students because I wanted to learn from her. She did not like that AT ALL, she became very defensive and has now dropped my grade, singled me out in the classroom, has sent me messages in my individual forum stating that students have complained about ME, which by the way- so not the case. I have documented everything, sent it in to my academic counselor, shown proof that the teacher not only does not interact with us but PLAGIARIZES other students in discussion weeks, when I say plagiarizes I mean she takes another student's idea and passes it off as her own without giving credit to the original student. She then expects us to respond to her, which by the way none of us do because we're not stupid.

So, what has been done about all of this by the University of Phoenix? NOTHING. Not one thing, everywhere I turn I am stonewalled and the teacher is defended by LOOPHOLES in the University's rules. The teacher used a program called Write Point (which students also use) to "grade" my paper, basically teachers have the ability and are supposed to use this system to check the grammar of every paper for every student for every assignment, well up until last week, my grade has been a 100%, it is now 97% because she decided to use Write Point to grade my paper and because of a few comma errors she dropped my grade, which according to the school is perfectly fine. EVEN THOUGH FOR THE LAST 6 WEEKS SHE HAS NOT SUBMITTED ANY OF MY OTHER PAPERS TO THIS SYSTEM. Yet, it's not in the least abnormal. Oh and did I mention that she didn't submit ANY of the other student's papers to this system for grading, yeah how do I know? I asked.

I have 2.5 weeks left and 6 assignments, she has the potential to seriously screw my grade that I have worked my ass off to get and there is nothing I can do about it, except do everything I can to make sure every assignment is free of all errors, including comma errors. At the end of the day I know that I am a great student and I deserve a quality education, as does everyone who is attending school. The fact that the University of Phoenix employs and protects "teachers" like this makes me realize that all the stereotyping about this school is true. I was warned before starting there that even though they are accredited they are not worth the money they charge to attend. So, thanks for providing me a mediocre education, a horrific experience and not helping me or listening to anything I have to say. If I could get my money back I would. I am incredibly grateful that my time with them is almost through, only one class left and I'm out of there and onto a real school.

Mom, mom, mom, momma, mommy, mom...

2010-05-18T13:58:00.000-07:00

And it just keeps going...until I turn my head and very loudly say WHAT. If I have to hear one more time how the dogs butt smells or there's a bug outside and why do bugs live outside and why do I do this and why that, I think I might just run away. Some days are awesome, some days I love every why and how come and whats this for, but today..well, today it's just too much. Today is a hide in the bed with the covers pulled over my head and listen to whiny chic music and watch sappy movies and cry and then laugh at myself for being such a girl! Well I am a girl so I guess this type of behavior is allowed, but it's not happening because all I can hear is Mommmmmm, mommmm, mommmm, mommmaaaa, mommmyyyyy, mommmmmmm.....

Good News to share!

2010-05-16T09:16:00.000-07:00

As some or all of you know I've been going to school for Psychology and will be graduating with an AA, associates degree, however, this degree doesn't really do much for what I want to do. Sooooo I will be pursuing my BA in Psychology at PENN STATE!!! The fact that I got in to a BIG 10 school is amazing to me! Granted I won't be physically going to the school as it is all done online, I am still a NITTANY LION!

I have also decided that I want to focus on the addiction side of Psychology, which is going to be a lot of biopsychology work, but I strongly feel that this where I can be of the most help. I say this now, but who knows, I still have a long way to go in my schooling..lol..

Not much else has been going on, but I will do my best to keep you, my bloggyland friends, updated as much as possible!

XOXOXOXO

Busy Bee :)

2010-05-04T06:08:00.000-07:00

Easter 2010

Me and my girls!

Nathen enjoying Spring!

Me, Nathen and Elissa

Me and my sweet girl!

So here it is May 4th and again I slacked off on keeping my bloggyland friends updated. For the most part I have just been insanely busy...School, Elissa's visit, Inlaws visit, playdates every week and still potty training Nate! Also, I have been forced to completely change my diet due to health problems, not diabetic, but I'm allergic to dairy, and have high cholesterol, and can not seem to lose thanks to my thyroid becoming even more underactive! But I will say that my diet (gluten/dairy/soy/sugar/wheat/red meat free) has made me feel a thousand times better! Getting rid of all the processed crap makes a huge difference! Oh and I learned how to mow my yard!!! Hehehehe..here are some pics from the last few months! :0)

We're still alive :0)

2010-03-05T15:58:00.000-08:00

Hey there bloggies! It's been quite a while I know. I nwas doing so good there for a while and then well life happened as it always does...So here's a quick synopsis of the last 2 months....

January...

Got unpacked and hit with quite a bit of snow, much more than we had anticipated, but stayed warm!! Enjoyed my very first Mom's Nite Out and made some great friends!

I'm in the bright blue :P

We also got library cards and have enjoyed going to story time and playing and reading. The mall here also has an awesome play area that Nate loves and a carousel too :). He's made some great friends, one in particular is his favorite named Sawyer :). Nate has adjusted really well to the move, not that I was worried, I had a feeling he would love it here more since we can actually be outside without melting :).

February....to present..

Still got some snow, but the temps started warming up so we ventured out of the house to the local zoo! The zoo sits on 50 acres and has a rainforest, jaguars, lions, tigers, monkeys, giraffes, zebras, TONS of birds and snakes and a rhino and a hippo named Donna who is the oldest hippo in captivity. The hills there are so steep that they have a zoo walk exercise club that begins in April :). We got our zoo memberships today and plan to go at least twice a week so that I can get a work out and he can learn more about the animals! I will post pics as soon as I get them loaded onto the computer..lol.. At the present time I am still loving school and will get my Associates degree in Psychology in August, Mark loves his job and the guys he works with! Elissa is coming to visit in 2 weeks for Spring Break and we'll be doing a trip to Nashville!!

Have I mentioned lately that moving to Indiana was one of the best things that's happened to us!!!

Gloves and a scarf

2010-01-08T14:12:00.000-08:00

This is what I'm wearing as I sit here and type to you. The computer room is in a part of the house where there is no heater vent. It's 11 degrees outside. Thus my need for gloves and a scarf while I type and try to do homework. I wanted to do a photodump of my new home in beautiful Indy. Yesterday was the first snow fall, fun for this city girl who has never actually lived where it snows, still afraid to drive in it..lol.. Anywho, hope you're all warm in bloggyland. Enjoy :)

Seriously?

2010-01-04T16:32:00.000-08:00

I was checking my email tonight and came across an article on AOL entitled "Why is 'The Bachelor' so WHITE?", basically the article asks the question of why aren't there more minorities on this show and is ABC a racist network because they don't add minorities to the mix of men or women for the Bachelor or Bachelorette to choose from! I watch this show and in no way am I sitting there going "gee, where's all the different races, they should be represented here too", I think if they are trying to find the perfect mate for these people obviously there are some criteria that are required. It's like The Rock of Love, should they start screening all the women to see if they were hookers at some point or what about letting a really nerdy girl on the show?? I don't think the race card or any card should be pulled period. It's 2010 and we're still talking about race. I'm not blind, I know racism exists, but come on now, it exists because people are ignorant and don't care about anyone but themselves, not all people just those that are racist. Anywho, I'm done ranting. If you want to read the article here is the link.

Our new home and Saying good-bye to 2009

2009-12-31T06:29:00.000-08:00

We are finally in our new home in Indiana, after a long vacation in Michigan and an awesome Christmas, we made the long drive home on Sunday. By the way driving through a horrible snow-storm, is now checked off of my to-do list for the rest of my life! I do not recommend doing this and if you have to CLOSE YOUR EYES and make SOMEONE ELSE DRIVE (that's what I did..and said A LOT of prayers)... So far, our new home is ok, it's older..not like victorian old, more late 70's old, and much bigger than I had anticipated which is actually a good thing because I need exercise and this house provides that ;). The neighbors are very friendly and we are so close to everything that I could walk if I wanted to and probably will when it's not 25 degrees.

Speaking of the weather... I never thought I would say this..but I actually kind of miss the sun..I love the gray clouds and the beauty of the rain and snow, but just one day I wish I could see the sun..lol..On the flip side, at least my ink will now be more vibrant because I will no longer tan in the winter like I did in AZ...hehehe...

So, on to the title of my post which is saying good-bye to 2009....I am trying to think of things I might miss from this year, but nothing is coming to me, this year feels like it flew by so fast..I can tell you things I won't miss, how about that?!

Things I'm glad I am leaving behind....

1. Stalkers

2. Debt

3. Debt

4. and more debt

5. 115 Degree Summers

6. Stress

That's all? Funny..I thought there would be more... I guess 2009 wasn't as horrible as I thought..teehee..

I am looking forward to 2010 and all that is in store, but I am also learning how to do everything one day at a time and not worry so much about what the future holds...It's much easier said than done ;).

So Happy New Year to all of you and may 2010 bring you whatever your heart desires! Remember to be grateful for what you've got (not material things) and learn from what you don't and as my grandma used to say "be kind to one another"....

Christmas

2009-12-24T12:30:00.000-08:00

13. Believe - Josh Groban(from the Polar Express film) @ Yahoo! Video

Hey all my bloggy friends...

Snow Pictures

2009-12-21T10:29:00.000-08:00

Welcome to my view of a Michigan neighborhood :-). This is where we are staying :)...

snow angel Nate

Nathen's first time in the snow

Michigan!!

2009-12-17T13:55:00.000-08:00

My Birthday

I have been in Michigan now for 4 days and am LOVING it! I think the midwest suits me just fine! I dig the cold weather and love the beauty of the snow, driving in it..well I haven't experienced that yet, and not looking forward to it! Thank goodness it doesn't snow very much in Indiana :)...

Today is my 31st Birthday, I am officially in my 30's, there's no turning back..not that there ever was..lol..So what was the world like 31 years ago....Let's take a look shall we...

The Grateful Dead played at the Fox Theater in Atlanta, GA and their set list was:

Jack Straw

They Love Each Other

Mama Tried

Mexicali Blues

Peggy-O

Passenger

Stagger Lee

New Minglewood Blues

Brown Eyed Women

Music Never Stopped

I Need a Miracle

Bertha

Good Lovin'

Ramble on Rose

From the Heart of Me

Estimated Prophet

Eyes of the World

drums

Shakedown Street

Sugar Magnolia

Johnny B. Goode

Look back at the Britannica Calendar of Events to find out what happened in the year 1978:

December 17, 1978 - Israel and Egypt failed to sign a peace treaty within the three-month period they had imposed upon themselves at the conclusion of the Camp David summit talks. The two sides had not met since November 16 because neither was willing to compromise on certain issues. Israel, for example, was unwilling to sign an agreement permitting elections that would establish autonomy for Palestinians in the West Bank and Gaza Strip before the end of 1979. Egypt, on its part, would not agree that a peace treaty with Israel would have priority over all other agreements it had already reached with other, notably Arab, countries. (source: The Britannica Archive)

And of course the mmost obvious....I was born :).....oh and it snowed in Las Vegas, NV!!

3 Years Old!

2009-12-11T18:21:00.003-08:00

That's how old my boy is today! Happy birthday my sweet boy!!!! **pics to come** :)

6 More Days

2009-12-07T17:21:00.000-08:00

Of the Arizona sun...This Sunday my son and I will be departing to Michigan, where (in case you haven't heard) it has been snowing.. A LOT.. my boy is EXTREMELY excited for the snow, he has never experienced the snow, but he's seen pictures and movies and thinks he's going to have a grand ole time, which I'm sure he will...me, well as long as I can keep my feet dry I will be a happy camper!

It's December, but it doesn't feel like it to me, usually around this time I would already have my house decorated and the tree decorated and I would be making cookies everyday and fudge and corn flake wreaths and no-bake cookies and sugar cookies to frost....not this year, I'm leaving all that to my in-laws and I am going to do my best not to stress out. You see me and Christmas haven't been getting along for a few years now. I do my very best to make it a happy time for my children and loved ones, but on the inside I am usually crying my insides out (and occassionally, the crying is on the outside too just when nobody is looking).

I miss my family. I miss my mom, I miss my grandma, I miss my cousins, I miss my grandpa, I miss my aunt and uncles, I miss my friends, I miss being happy at this time of year. I want so badly to recapture that joy, and I know eventually I will ( keep saying this every year).

Right now, just for today this is who I miss the most...

Grandma, Aunt M and my mom

My grandma and me (1 yr old)

Top (my dad -age 2, my grandpa-age 30)

Bottom (my mom and dad- ages 22 and 24, my grandma, my dad and grandpa- ages 25, 4 and 28)

Dad (long hair), grandpa and uncle

My mom and dad Sept. 1977

Did you know?

2009-11-30T07:29:00.000-08:00

That Christmas is 25 days away? When I was little my mom would get me an advent calendar to count down the days and every night after dinner I would get to open one of the squares and eat the candy inside as I learned how to count down the days to my favorite Holiday. I am thinking of starting that tradition with my boy, not this year, but next.

Today is Cyber Monday and I don't know about you, but I for one am all about shopping online and not standing in line.

I went to 2 stores on Black Friday, PetSmart for dog food (I know..LOOKOUT, big spender on the loose!) and then right next door is Costco which had given out some awesome coupons to all of their members, so I took advantage of one of the sale items (and I wish I could share what it is that I bought, but it is a Christmas present for Mark), anywho, the line for Costco was absolutely ridiculous and wrapped almost all the way around Petsmart.

Did I stand it? NO way! I went and wandered around Petsmart and listened to the super annoying sales clerk at the front door (passing out coupons) tell EVERY person that walked in how the people in the Costco line were going to be killed because some of them were standing in the street and how it's so dangerous to be standing there because people drive to fast in the parking lot (unless you are a blind person driving, no way would you miss the HUGE crowd of people).

After purchasing my 40lb bag of dog food, I went out to my truck, drank my Starbucks Peppermint Mocha and waited for the line to go away. I was in and out of Costco in 8 minutes! I did witness the craziness of people frenzied by the coupons, people pushing, shoving and glaring at one another over a freakin TV or Ipod (the deals were good, but not THAT good).

So, this brings me back to today, I have already purchased my own Birthday present (thank you Mark) from Bath and Bodyworks, free shipping and 20% total purchase price. I am now going to shop at Kohl's and Target, my fingers are getting the work out today!

Happy shopping today online!

I'm angry

2009-11-29T12:54:00.000-08:00

I have to get this off of my chest before I run screaming to the State Legislature's office!

My hubs has been unemployed since September 9, almost 3 months now, of that 3 months he has received 6 weeks worth of unemployment benefits, for the first month he got nothing because of his severance pay.

The state decided that his severance money was enough to help us and then the measley 200 a week would help, in the mean time we've lost our credit, our house, our truck, our sanity!

I am so grateful for Indiana right now I could kiss the ground there!

As for the state of Arizona, they can suck it! They decided that this week my hubs isn't allowed to file a claim for benefits, no reason given, he still has plenty of money in benefits to last all the way until September 2010, I have been reduced to part time hours so what the F are we supposed to do now?

He doesn't start working until January and oh did anyone realize it's freaking Christmas time!

The State of AZ just did a giant budget cut for DES (Department of Economic Security..an EFFFING JOKE), the brilliant minds of this government cut the childcare help for families and other departments funding to pull AZ out of a hole, yet we were just given bailout money..soo..ummmm where did that money go?? This is beyond ridiculous.

I wonder how the big wigs in the government can sleep at night??

Thankful for YOU!

2009-11-25T09:15:00.000-08:00

image borrowed from: http://thelegacybuilder.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/being_thankful_card.jpg
This Thanksgiving is quite different this year...I feel so incredibly THANKFUL for everyone that is in my life, including all of you bloggy friends who have shown me that even when I'm lonely, I'm not really alone. I am most thankful for the Man upstairs, because He keeps me going even when my faith falters and I want the world to swallow me, He pulls me up and brushes me off and reminds me that I have strength and people to lean on, He always finds a way to show me that, even when I'm stubborn :).

Ok, so what else am I thankful for this year?

I'm thankful for my family, that kind of goes without saying though....

I'm thankful for music...music has a power all it's own...

I'm thankful for food :-) (sometimes I'm too thankful for food...just ask my waistline!)

I'm thankful for Facebbok this year because it has kept me in contact with my family! You would think we could pick up a phone..lol..instead we Facebook each other! I love it!

I'm thankful for my awesome Algebra teacher, she is one of those teachers that will stand out in my mind for the rest of my life. She's one of the teachers that has inspired me to want to teach again!

I am thankful for the ability to laugh at all situations, even when it may seem inappropriate, I try really hard to find the funny in everything. It makes life much easier to go through.

So, inquiring minds (ok, just mine, but that should count for something right?) want to know what YOU are thankful for???

Pictures

2009-11-24T14:37:00.000-08:00

So with the whole moving thing also comes the unearthing of things long forgotten..like pictures..

I tend to be a bit of a scatterer, not really super messy, just everything has it's own place and it's own place is never the same, so sometimes I'll have stuff hidden away that should be with another pile of stuff that is hidden away, have I confused anyone yet?

Anyhoo, I found 2 photo albums yesterday, both of which contained the very first pictures of Mark and I from our courtship period, you know when you look all lovey dovey and happy, and of course you both look GREAT because you're trying to look your best to keep the other one interested...you know what I'm talking about right?.. So, in said pictures, I looked at how different I look just 5 years ago and how he looks exactly the same just a shorter goatee.

I did not cry when I looked at the pictures, I laughed...I laughed because when I look at that girl in those pictures I realize that I am not her, I am so different from who she is, not just physically, but psychologically as well. I am not going to toot my own horn, but I have come a really long way in just 5 short/long years and I like who I am turning out to be and I like who Mark has turned out to be (most of the time...hehe).

With a new journey ahead of us I can't wait to see what new pictures we'll capture.....

Oh and for your viewing pleasure..here are some pics of our new house we'll be renting, not buying...no buying for a while..I'd rather have someone else come and take care of stuff..lol...

Indiana here we come..

So, far this looks like this will be my favorite spot in the house..I love window seats!

Friend Makin Monday

2009-11-23T14:58:00.000-08:00

So I have decided to participate in a new blog fun thing called Friend Makin Monday hosted by AEFilkins :)...

1. Turkey or Ham? Both

2. Favorite side dish? Mashed Potatoes

3. Favorite dessert? Pumpkin crisp

4. Black Friday: Are you going or not? Online shopping for sure and maybe Old Navy at 3 am, gotta get me and my boys some more snow clothes :)

5. If so, what's on the top of your list? Snow clothes, hats, scarves, gloves :)

6. Going out of town or staying close to home? Staying home

7. Hosting or helping? Hosting

8. Name one family tradition at Thanksgiving. Sadly the traditions have passed on with my grandma's passing 2 years ago...I am trying to create new ones with my family, but since we seem to move a lot it's tough..

9. What do you do after dinner? Sleep..lol..

10. What are you most thankful for this year? My husband's new job, a new home to live in, healthy friends and family and the strength that God has given me to endure...

Your turn...go and check out Friend Makin Monday and make some new friends!!

I went, I saw, I LOVED it!

2009-11-22T19:47:00.000-08:00

I will do my best not to provide any details that may spoil New Moon for those that have not seen it yet.

I will tell you that I am thoroughly impressed with my new found love for Jacob Black's character. I was not a huge fan of Taylor Lautner, in fact, he kind of got on my nerves, until today.

I sincerely hope that they keep him as Jacob for the rest of the movies because his acting abilities and buffness made this movie what it is...undeniably AWESOME!

I still heart Edward, I am not a traitor, but he's got competition for sure.

Poor Bella...hehe...

I am also impressed with how much they stuck with the book this time! The one thing that still bugs me though is when they pull dialogue from the book, implement it into the scene and then leave out giant portions that are supposed to follow said dialogue.

Overall this was a great movie, totally worth seeing more than once and all of you who hate the ending just need to SUCK IT! If you don't like it, go read the books!

That is all for now, I must finish my finals :)...yes, I chose to go see New Moon instead of do my finals, that are due in 3 hours...ahhh the things I do for my Edward/Jacob...I mean Twilight, fix.....

It's Here..It's Here..It's Here!!!

2009-11-19T17:28:00.000-08:00

Ok so I may be seriously sick, but I am still beyond excited for New Moon. This is the interview with R Patts on Live! With Regis and Kelly from this morning...all I have to say is he is one smooth talking man, especially about us Twilight Moms! Love, love, love him and his soft British accent!

Darn it!

2009-11-18T15:55:00.001-08:00

I missed a day of blogging :(. I didn't get all the way through NaBloPoMo for November. My stupid immune system seems to not want to work properly anymore. I have been sick since September, along with my son. It seems just when we get better this nasty cold/flu symptoms comes right back. I could barely move yesterday and today and my poor boy has the runnynose/cough, on top of feeling like death warmed over, I have also been coughing, coughing stuff up (I know gross) and coughing so hard it feels like my body is going to split in two. All I know is I have a date with myself this Friday and I will not let anything stand in my own way.

So, anyone got any handy dandy cold/cough remedies they'd like to share? I'm all ears...

New Moon Monday

2009-11-16T17:43:00.000-08:00

Ok so I have theme going for this week...if you are not a fan of the Twilight Saga than I'm very sorry and don't wish to alienate you, but I happen to love all things Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn and still have my fingers crossed that there will be more books/movies to be made.

Today is my ode to all things New Moon, whether you are "Team Edward" or "Team Jacob"..there will be enough for all to enjoy.

Indulge in the yumminess for a while with me :)...

Selling Stuff

2009-11-15T16:02:00.001-08:00

I went through my closet today and pulled stuff out to sell on E-bay. Here is my listing in case you or anyone you know might be interested :-)...Check Out My Stuff

Saturday Blahsssss

2009-11-14T18:41:00.000-08:00

I watched "Bride Wars" tonight..alone..without a friend. I saw it when it first came out, I went with my cousin. We had a blast during the movie, laughed and cried at all the same parts....

I am sooooooo lonely....there's no other way to describe it, I have alienated and withdrawn from everyone I used to be close to. I have adopted a new body, one that has packed on so much weight that I don't recognize myself anymore, I have a face that has to hide behind makeup because my skin looks like a 14 year old boys who's going thru puberty and I can't remember the last time I laughed like a really honest tears running down my face laugh. Did I mention I'm losing my hair too? I am 30 and losing my hair, I can literally pull out handfuls without even trying. Don't even get me started on the last time I actually felt attractive, maybe 3 years ago, hell probably longer than that...

I have no idea who I am anymore. I know my roles, the mom, the wife, the student, the friend?, the keeper of things that should be thrown away (yes, a pack rat), the nomad who can't seem to find a home that will actually stay in one place. Maybe that's all there is, maybe this is all I'm supposed to be. Maybe this is why I'm lonely??? Or maybe its just a bad night?

Busy

2009-11-13T20:50:00.000-08:00

Printing crap and trying to find a realtor and trying to find plane tickets and trying to find boxes and my head hurts....that's all I've got for you on this quite Lucky Friday the 13th!

Bitter Sweet

2009-11-12T19:22:00.000-08:00

With this new adventure comes a sadness too... The house we are in was our first real home that was supposed to be ours for the next 20 years (the life of the mortgage..lol). Now, we are losing this home to foreclosure/bankruptcy, along with my truck. I am beyond grateful for our new opportunity and am chalking up our losses to another life lesson... I think I will take a walk down memory lane later in the week, for right now I just want to keep focused on all the good that's in store and going on right now!

So on that happy note, I bought WINTER clothes yesterday, for the first time ever! I bought a WOOL PEACOAT! I have been jonseing for Peacoat for foreeevvvverrr!! Now I finally have a place to wear one! Ok I'm overdoing it with exclamation points tonight :). Now I just need some snow boots, sweaters and scarves and I'll be all set! Old Navy here I come (again)......hehe...

Some of God's Greatest Gifts

2009-11-11T17:33:00.000-08:00

"Are unanswered prayers..." ok no I am not going to seranade you with Garth Brooks..I promise..

However, I am going to share with you some really exciting news!!! Ready.......

Wait for it.......

Wait for it.....

Ok..enough faux suspense, Mark got the job in the place where I said he went but wouldn't tell you where for fear of the jinx...hehe

Yes, folks, we are ON THE MOVE toooooooo Indiana....

I have never been to Indiana, but according to Mark I will love it because it has all 4 Seasons, it even snows and I finally get to watch leaves change colors. I will also love it because it won't be 150 degrees in the Summer and even if it is we'll be right off of the Ohio River...needless to say I'm a bit excited!

Am I excited to pack? Heck NO! But I am excited that we will be out of the desert, beautiful sky and all, I'm just done with the dirt. I think I need someone to pinch me... it hasn't really sunk in yet....

Perspective

2009-11-10T17:40:00.000-08:00

Today Mark embarked on an adventure all by himself to a state that will not be named for a something that will not be talked about for fear of a jinx, sooooo...that left me and my little man to hang out all day, ALONE! For two months now it has been the three of us all day everyday. I miss Mark, when he's gone it really puts into perspective how much Nate and I really love having him around, ok so sometimes Nate more than me..but you know husbands have a way of on occassion getting under your skin, just a little bit....right?

No?

I'm alone in this?

So for my day with Nate we woke up bright and early, ate some cereal, watched some Scooby Doo (8 episodes) and then went to rent the Disney movie "Up!" and a movie for mom, "The Ugly Truth", hilarious by the way, but totally predictable. "Up" was great, Nate now wants our house to float in the sky with balloons and a talking dog! Everyday that little man says something new that makes me wonder where the heck he gets things from? Oh, well, wait a sec..maybe he gets things from me? Hmmmmm going to have to work on some ummm choice words... maybe that'll be my goal tomorrow, create a better language for my boy..lol..

Speaking of tomorrow I have 2 choices, work with Nate here at home orrrrrr....take the day off and not work? Orrrrr.....take Nate to daycare and then come back and work? What's a girl to do????

Photo Dump Monday

2009-11-09T18:49:00.000-08:00

One Year Ago......

Two Days ago....

*and to give credit where credit is due...I owe the idea of this post to Ms Janana Bee, go check her out!*

Good Bye Toys

2009-11-08T16:58:00.000-08:00

Well it's more like good bye to one toy....this one...

Yes, we sold the bike this weekend...it was a sad day, not as sad as when we sold the Harley, but still a sad day.

So many changes so fast, I long for a quiet period in time where we don't have to wonder or worry about what bill to pay and what not to pay...

Well, at least we have our sense of humor! Nate provides a daily dose of "nate humor", he is quite the ham these days and his new favorite saying is "hey, look at me!" followed by a dance, a cartwheel, a sommersault, a song or a monstrous growl with his hands hooked like claws...he mimicks every animal and any bug that makes a sound, Bees are currently his favorite! He's our sanity even when he's driving us crazy!

Thank GOD for this boy...

Beauty

2009-11-07T20:08:00.000-08:00

I got lost tonight on the way home from the gas station that is about 2 miles from my house...how did that happen you might ask?

Well, I live in the middle of no where, in the middle of the desert, where people don't believe in street lights or reflective street signs. It occurred to me tonight that I have become my grandmother at the age of 30, I no longer want to drive at night because I literally can't see, even with my brights on!

I usually take pride in my sense of direction, you know I always seem to find some sort of landmark so that I know where I am and where I'm going. When I was little, 3 or 4 years old, my mom worked at a restaurant, I had been there twice. My auntie Gina, who wasn't really my aunt, had to pick my mom up from work one day but didn't know how to get there, so I guided her by way of the trees, I remembered all the trees that lined that road leading to the restaurant. So you see, I should have been able to find my way home....

Tonight was a different story, I got scared not being able to see and not knowing where I was. Serves me right for trying to go one block over from where I started from..I should have just gone back the way I came, but nooooooo I had to try a different route. I ended up back tracking almost all the way back to the store until I finally saw a street sign that I knew would get me home.

As I pulled into my driveway I thought to myself "Self, if we move to another state, please let there be street lights or I'm not going!". Yes, I yell at myself all the time and make deals with myself too, none of which I ever keep!

Nevertheless, when I got out of my truck and closed the door I looked up and almost had the wind knocked out of me. The beauty of the night sky has always been my favorite thing next to cookies, cocoa, fudge (yes, I'm craving chocolate) and kisses from my kids.

There is something about the Arizona night sky that makes me feel small, but also like I'm so tall I could reach up and touch the stars and maybe catch one if it fell. If we move I will miss the beauty that I don't cherish enough of just a simple thing of stars in the sky......

It's My Thursday

2009-11-06T15:46:00.000-08:00

For everyone else (that works a M-F job), today is your Friday, symbolizing the start of, I'm sure a much needed, weekend. For myself, today is my Thursday, because I have funky split days off, tomorrow is my Friday and Sunday is my Saturday and then Monday is my Friday again, and then Tuesday is my Sunday..somehow that sounded much better in my head? Anywho, I get to start packing this weekend, where are we going you might ask? Honestly, we have no idea, we just have A LOT of stuff that needs to be thrown away, I mean boxed up :-). So, that is my task to go through all the crap, I mean stuff, and box, box, box away. I'm beginning to see a trend in my life, I am but a simple nomad, I should start carrying my stuff in a shell on my back, but I guess t hen that would make me a hermit crab right?

All I know is that I seem to move every 2 years or so and wherever we go next I hope we get to stay there for a while.

Did you all know that it's November? I mean really? Where did this year go? I feel like the days just keep going by faster and faster and I am so not ready for any Holiday festivities. Anyone know of any good holiday music that will help me get in the "mood" for Christmas? I'm open to any and all suggestions!

Happy Friday everyone! TGIT for me....hahahahaha..ok, yea that was lame.... :)

Bad Day

2009-11-05T08:27:00.000-08:00

I should be all ecstatic right now...my Yankees won their 27th World Series last night!! I could have done without the "we did this for Mr. Steinbrenner" speech, but whatever, they won..FINALLY...only took them 9 years..lol..

But no I am in a crappy mood, I'm stressed out and people are not being nice today and I'm tired of being scared, of not knowing and even though I'm doing everything I can to hold it together today is just one of those days where I'm cracking and trying not to fully fall apart....

I think I'll go do some math homework..that always seems to calm me down! I know I'm weird....

Game 6!

2009-11-04T18:10:00.000-08:00

I am watching Game 6 of the World Series,...and biting my nails...

Can't focus...must watch baseball.....

This will be a two-part post....to be continued...

I am NOT a Monster!

2009-11-03T17:27:00.000-08:00

I had today off, as I usually do since it is a Tuesday. I decided last night that we should all go to lunch today, ya know a fun family outting. Which it was, surprisingly Nate was very well behaved and ate his entire little kid pizza! I decided that I would try something new (why I continue to torture myself, is beyond my comprehension) which was HORRIBLE and Mark had a yummy pizza all to himself. I had a plan going in to the restaurant! I would not eat the same thing, I would find something else to try, against my better judgement. So, after lunch, we came home, argued in the car about how best to get Nate to sleep in his own bed and should we eliminate nap time during the day? My answer of course is keep the nap time, Mark wants to ditch the nap time. And the saga continues...

After the arguing I decided I wanted to give myself a mini-facial, to give myself a small amount of pampering...I just wanted to look like this...

And I did for about 5 minutes and then I did the unthinkable...........................................................

I opened the door leading from my bathroom into my bedroom and there is my lovely, sweet, perfect angel of a boy and he says......"AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MOMMY'S A MONSTER!!!!!!!!" So I did my best not to crack the mask that I had so carefully slathered on in the hopes of getting rid of the impurities, only to loose it completely when he said and I quote, "Momma, going to get treats now? Her Halloween mask on".......yea so much for relaxing.....

Just when you need it!

2009-11-02T17:47:00.001-08:00

I have always known that things happen for a reason, that those reasons are sometimes bigger than what we may be able to comprehend at the moment and every now and then I am reminded why I have the friends and the family that I do. I don't always know when or why, but I always get a message of hope or love just when I need it and a lot of the time it comes in very unexpected ways. I don't talk a lot about prayer or faith, most of the time I save those for my darkest hours and I usually keep those to myself...but I know that prayer works and I have faith that the Man upstairs is taking care of me and my family.And to him I say, I am listening Lord, my ears and heart are open and whatever you have planned for me and my family, I can take it.

So, on this next leg of my journey, I hope you'll stay with me, it may be a bumpy ride, but as my grandma used to say, if it was too easy, it wouldn't be worth it....or something to that effect...(miss you grandma)....

Happy November First!

2009-11-01T17:20:00.001-08:00

I forgot to pop on yesterday to wish everyone a Happy Halloween, so how about a Happy November 1st!

Halloween was fun, we took little man out trunk or treating at a church function. He didn't quite know what to do, the people were very sweet and would come up to him since he was so shy. He made out like a little bandit (as my mom would say)! Mark was going to dress up as Shaggy since Nate was Scooby Doo and I was going to be Velma, but time did not allow me to search for the perfect Velma costume, so I donned a Witch's hat instead :). Here are some fun pics from Nate's first REAL Halloween..enjoy!

Marks attempt at being Shaggy :-)..."A" for effort!

Yay for today!

2009-10-29T22:07:00.000-07:00

Trying to get into the habit..why am I repeating myself..ok today was a great day! Yankees won game 2 and today is me and Marks 4 year wedding anniversary! My how time flies!! Ok off to bed! Blog more tomorrow..more than a generic post :)

NaBloPoMo

2009-10-28T09:56:00.000-07:00

Yes I am crazy, I am needing a blogging kick in the pants to get back on track in the bloggy world! So what better way than to join the NaBloPoMo for the month of November! Hope you'll join me in my 30 days of blogging madness!!

World Series...WOOHOO!!

2009-10-26T19:05:00.000-07:00

In case you missed it....THE YANKEES ARE GOING TO THE WORLD SERIES!!!! I guess I'm not a jinx after all..heehee.. I had this theory that the only way the Yankees ever win is if I don't watch, I know absurd right?! ANyway, it was still a silly fear of mine and one that I held onto so much so that if they started to lose while I was in the room I'd walk out and yell for updates or come running out when I heard lots of cheering going on....of course I am not all powerful...

So to the Yankees...thanks for a great season and lets kick some Phillie @ss :).

Just can't seem to....

2009-10-25T18:22:00.000-07:00

Get motivated to write a paper about dehydration. It's not good to be dehydrated, it sucks, your body doesn't want to work right you get all these funky symptoms. There..done! Now I just need to turn that little phrase into 1050 words.....ummmm...I can do it...I think I can..I think I can..I think I can...Hope everyone is enjoying their Sunday...off to write..and try not to pull my hair out...

Random picture that I think is pretty...

Saturday Sickness

2009-10-24T13:03:00.000-07:00

Me when I was not sick...

Hi there..it's me again..still sick...I believe that I need to buy some stock in Kleenex, Robitussin and Vicks Vapo Rub! Oh and the people that created my really soft socks and blankie. Yes, I still call it a blankie..leave a girl alone she doesn't feel well! So to my two commenters that are anti-Michigan and anti-Yankees...I have nothin for ya, no witty come backs...I knew when I fell in love with the Yanks that I would fall victim to those who hate....They play tonight, at home, see they lost on purpose on Thursday just so they would win at home..I know their tricks!

I stumbled upon a new blog last night that's being featured by blogspot called the Hermitage, very cool blog if you like fairytalish english hobbit lord of the rings type stuff. Seriiously though the chic that writes and draws and takes pictures is quite talented! As are all of the bloggyland people that I follow.

Anywho, I'm off to try to nap hopefully without coughing...I'm also learning that as long as I keep my mouth shut I don't cough...I'm pretty sure this makes Mark very happy....hahaha...

Something to pass the time...

2009-10-19T10:02:00.000-07:00

I'm off of work today because I am sick and my boy is sick and I was told by the doc to stay away from people..lol..I'm not a leper geez! Anyway, I keep saying that I need to blog more and that I'll start again..and I will I swear. Maybe it will help alleviate my stress..Mark is still not having much luck in the J-O-B department, did you guys know that the economy FING BLOWS! Unless of course you don't mind working for oh 7 an hour...where's the stimulus package? Where's all this supposed turning around of the economy? Last I heard (which was this morning) there have been more layoffs..oh sure the percentage might be down, but that's because there are NO MORE PEOPLE TO LAY OFF, at this rate it'll be the business owners and their secretary running most of the businesses unless of course you're a Wall Street fat cat, then you have job security! Forgive me for ranting but I am just pissed off! So many people suffering..sooo many it's sickening. All I have to look forward to are my Yankees! LET'S GO YANKEES (clap, clap, clap) LET'S GO YANKEES (clap, clap, clap)!!!!! Oh and homework, I have that to look forward to too!

Strength..where does it come from?

2009-09-15T17:52:00.000-07:00

I have been taking a positive Psych course for the last 8 weeks and for most of the last 8 weeks I have been a bitter betty. I would read my fellow classmates postings about how they are gaining so much insight about positive this and positive that and all I could do was make horrible scornful remarks in my head. I used to be the eternal optimist and slowly but surely life stuff happened and my optimisim has begun to go down the tubes. Which leaves me asking the question...when things get so SHI**Y and I just don't want to move and all I want is to cry for days and not move (I know I said that already), where does the strength come from?

My hubs lost his job last Thursday...the economy finally came and took the safety net away and my hubs was "laid off". I am now the bread winner at a whopping 9.00 an hour. Did I mention we have bills to pay and mouths to feed? We have been fortuante to have lasted as long as we did without suffering too badly, but now I am scared..like really really scared. Again, I have pulled strength from somewhere to get my happy butt up and out of bed and working to keep it together. Last week in my positive Psych course was the fostering HOPE week, I had to create a slide show presentation about fostering HOPE. How do you foster something that feels so far away? Well I did it somehow.

I am grateful for little moments in my past that will surface just when I need reminding of something, does that ever happen to anyone else? You're driving yourself crazy over something and all of a sudden you'll recall a comment or a conversation and it will magically put things into perspective....Well look at that I'm being positive for a moment... I guess it's still in me somewhere...

I am still alive

2009-08-16T10:49:00.000-07:00

I have no excuse for being an absent blogger. Well actually I do, it's the same one work, school, family. It has been quite the rollar coaster ride since June. I enjoy my job, I am still doing ok in school and still butting heads with my professors ;-). I have changed my major to psychology professor, I don't know if I could be a full time advice/listener, but who knows I may feel differently later. Family life is good, Nate is really good at the terrible two's so much so that I am ready to throw in the towel..I surrender to what once was my sweet angel boy and has now become the devil, who by the way doesn't like me anymore and only wants his daddy. Everyone says this is normal, all I know is that it freaking sucks!

I miss having the free time to blog..I'm supposed to be doing a paper right now but I have writer's block kind of. I have a new respect for the women out there that work full time, have babies and a husband and animals and friends, I am struggling to keep my head above water and not go crazy everyday. God made us strong for a reason, at least that's what I keep telling myself.

I have a new tattoo artist which I'm excited about, now maybe I can go back to using ink as my therapy! Nothing like getting that endorphin rush..and yes I know I can get that rush other ways like exercising.. :-). Well that's all for now I hope to be back to blogging more soon. Thanks for following me still :).

To My Son..

2009-06-15T08:09:00.000-07:00

My Dearest Nathen,

I know you are too little to read this right now because you are 2, but I wanted to write it anyway so that when you are older you can read this... I know the last few weeks have been very hard, I know it's tough having to go to a strangers house and be around other kids that you don't know for 9 hours a day. I promise it won't be this way forever. I miss you everyday you're there and I wish more than anything that you could be here with me, but I promise it won't be this way forever. I wish there was a way to help you understand and to make your days easier, hopefully in time it won't be so bad..I feel horrible, I hope you can forgive mommy for having to leave you and I hope I can forgive myself...I love you so much baby boy and I promise it won't be this way forever...

I love you Nate..

Always,
Mommy

BIG HUGS

2009-06-10T16:38:00.000-07:00

To all of you in bloggyland that left me such sweet comments and very good advice about how to find friends, you will never know just how appreciated you truly are in my book!

I have been MIA again, busy busy bee that I am these days! I got a job, started last week, it's a work from home telecommuting job and so far it's awesome! Nate has been sick for about a week now, he has the HORRIBLE FLU, vomit, fever, and poo oh my! I'm trying to keep it away from myself, but I can feel some of it starting to come on.

Anywho..

Thanks again everybody and I must depart to go do homework and then breathe! I'll be around again soon!!!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

How to make friends? "pity party of 1 please"

2009-05-30T19:26:00.000-07:00

I have no freaking idea how to make friends anymore. I don't leave my house, that would be my first problem. The problem with that is I have no where to go so why leave. It's a double edged sword. I don't go to church, I don't have a job (that allows me to leave the house that is), my son goes to a daycare, but I don't ever see other moms, I don't know of any book clubs or mommy and me groups near by and even if I did everything is so far away from me it would take anyone I did meet an hour or more just to visit me or I them, unless they live next to me, but I've seen those people and that's not happenin. Maybe I'm just too cynical nowadays, I have been lonely for so long that I am petrified of rejection. I saw a girl once at my son's peds office and she had kids about the same age as Nate and I thought to myself..why not just walk up and say hey, can we be friends?...Then I thought about how lame that sounded and felt like I was 6 again.

Remember being 5 or 6 and going to kindergarten for the first time without knowing anyone, but because you're all the same age and the teacher is there to protect you it's easy to make friends. At the age of 30, it's not so easy, for me anyway. I am out of practice when it comes to friendships, I barely speak to the friends that I did have from Las Vegas so I'm really out of practice. Maybe this is life's way of saying I am not good enough for friends, but that can't be because I'm actually A LOT of fun and I have a huge heart and love people that don't smell bad, sorry if you're stinky I just can't hang with you I have a sensitive nose..but at this point, I honestly don't care! I just wish I knew how to make a friend and keep a friend.

Ok I'm done being this pity party....... If you know of any people that need a friend send them my way, I'm not this blah I swear! :).. here are some pictures to prove it!! These are pictures of me with friends I had in Vegas....

Free at last!

2009-05-20T19:11:00.000-07:00

Last entry was all about my Critical Thinking class and the lame-o's that were not nice. I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy to say that I am done with that course, passed with a 96% and will never have to deal with that instructor or those students (fingers crossed) ever again! I am now extremely happy with this block of classes, Psych and Ethics and both of my instructors are stellar so far and my classmates KICK SOME SERIOUS ASS! In my Psych class there is a BIO-CHEMIST and he freaking rocks, his intelligence is so refreshing and he makes me strive to be better, plus I get to pick his brain about his field and gain insight into the different pathways in the brain! Also, my psych instructor is rather eccentric but is also kick ass! He has tons of knowledge on more than just psychology and I am excited because I may be able to have him as a mentor, since I'm persuing my psych degree all the way as far as I can go...Yes I will be Dr. Mesa, PhD and maybe even call myself an actual scientist, neuroscientist that is :-).

So, that's all for now, I leave you with yet another funny video of my crazy and silly son!

Enjoy Nathen and his stinky toes....hahahahaha

Why do I?

2009-05-13T09:43:00.000-07:00

Why do I care so much about what other people think of me? Is it human nature to want everyone to like everyone else? I was recently told that I have no heart by some of my peers in my critical thinking course, all because my view on the topic we were discussing was different from theirs. It shouldn't matter to me what they think of me, more than likely I will never meet these people face to face or even interact with them after this course, but it bugs me that out there in the world these people have judged me and found me to be guilty of, in their eyes, having no heart. My normal reaction would have been to fire back at them and argue and try to prove that yes huh I have a heart, but I just don't have that fight in me anymore. I feel resigned to the fact that people will always be judgemental and make assumptions based on another's view.

I have tried for my entire life to accept everyone, but those that are so closed minded I just shut down against. I don't get it, my mind can't comprehend being that way. It makes me wonder how they learn? I don't mean that in a condesecnding way, I actually wonder what their thought process is.

Anyway, I know I shouldn't let it get to me and I know that after an hour or so I'll get over it, it's just that in this moment, it hurts my heart. I have too much emotionality (according to my shrink), I tend to use my emotions for everything, but I am learning to actually use the critical thinking skills that I was taught through this course..lol..

I start my psych class on Monday so that should be interesting...hopefully some of my questions will be answered..the name of the course is "Why we do what we do"..lol..

to end on a light note....for your viewing pleasure..my wacky boy

Happy Mother's Day

2009-05-08T16:19:00.000-07:00

Dear Mom,

I miss you. I think about you everyday, I sometimes go to my phone to call you and I remember I can't, and then I chide myself for not remembering. Sometimes I see you in my dreams, I wish they were happier moments, I know you feel bad for all that you missed, but it's ok. I wonder sometimes if you stop by, Nathen will look off into space and say grandma....I keep thinking that the ache will go away or that it should be easing, but no...it's still there, raw and bleeding. I was going through your things the other night looking at your pictures, I realized that I kind of have your smile, or at least I did when I was your age in the pictures. You were so beautiful and you looked so happy, I wish I could have known that part of you. Thanks by the way for keeping the Mother's Day card that I made for you when I was kid, that was really sweet to find, I never knew you kept those things. I hope you're happy where you are....wish you were here....

Happy Mother's Day mom..Love you

***To my bloggy friends that are moms..Have a very HAPPY Mother's Day!!!***

What a weekend...

2009-05-04T10:45:00.000-07:00

Ya ever have one of those weekends where you just can't wait for it to be Monday already?? That would be how I felt Saturday and Sunday.....All I know is I am so glad it's Monday I could practically float...I guess I shouldn't complain too much, I mean I did go see X-Men Origins-Wolverine,

by myself, basically so I could drool over Hugh Jackman's muscles (sorry Mark). It really was an awesome movie, if you like X-Men that is, I was really awed by how they stuck to the true story line from the comic books and I can't wait to see what they do with next ones :) So, what could possibly have been wrong on Saturday? I mean, you'd think a day at the movies with this on the screen

would make for a great day...but, I think because Mark and I were just having a sort of off day, ya know, when you both say stuff that just drives the other one crazy, no matter how little, just made for a downer day.

Sunday started out really crappy, I woke up, made coffee, checked my emails and what do I find? Someone hacked my Ebay account, started selling crazy stuff through my account, my paypal account was frozen because of it and it has now caused a bunch of paranoia issues. I got it mostly straightened out, Ebay saw that it was a 3rd party that had hacked into it so they reversed all the fees. It just makes me feel unsafe, not that I was walking around with blinders on or anything, I know when doing stuff online you're not 100% safe, but I just was starting to feel comfy cozy a little bit. Oh well, time to close out those accounts and start all over again!

Sunday ended on an alright note, I got feedback from my instructors about my weekly grades and I'm still maintaining a low A, so yay for that :) and now it's Monday. I am going to read and clean today and be worry free :)

I've Gone Etsy!

2009-05-02T18:16:00.001-07:00

I have a passion for baking, it calms me, makes me happy and keeps my mind occupied, when it otherwise would wander. So in honor of this passion of mine I have opened an Etsy shop where I will sell my baked yummies. My etsy shop is to the right ------>>>>> please take a look around and if you need any yummies let me know, if you're a friend and follower you get a 10% discount! By the way, my specialty is CHOCOLATE CHIP cookies, just ask Roni Stacy from RandRStacy Family in Dallas, she's on my blogroll and has a nifty button in My Buttons from Bloggyland list, she was a winner in a contest I had a few months ago and got a dozen yummy cookies and 2 purses :).

Anywho, check out my shop and let me know what you think!

XOXO

A Brighter Outlook

2009-04-30T17:19:00.000-07:00

I changed my mind about taking on the Gecko...I was just bitter. I have now changed my view on the situation and see this as a positive. I would have loved to work there, I would have loved the extra money that it would have brought in, but the fact is it's not a dire necessity that I should work, my hubby still has a full time job and it pays well, I just know we can use extra.

The way I see it...someone else can benefit more from that job than I could have. The economy, as we all know, is still not great and there are people that need a great paying job, with benefits. So, in my mind it wasn't meant to be for me to get that job and I know that whoever got it is more deserving, or more in need. Everything does happen for a reason :)

Discrimination????

2009-04-29T12:22:00.000-07:00

I didn't get the job. My brain stupidly forgot that on top of the full time job I had in 2004 I also had 2 part time jobs at the same time so on my application I only put that I had the one job, the thing that irritates me is that HR called to verify my background stuff and when she asked about those part time jobs (which I had only had for a month by the way) I honestly told her I had completely forgotten all about them because they weren't significant. She said it was ok stuff like this happens all the time and then asked about a job I had in 2002 and for a W2 to prove I had worked there because that job wouldn't verify information over the phone, so I searched everywhere for th W2, couldn't find it but I had A LOT of pay stubs from the job so I called her let her know what I had and waited to hear from her so I could bring her the copies....she called back 7 hours later saying she submitted my background info to "upper management" (p.s. she's the SENIOR EMPLOYMENT SPECIALIST FOR THE HIRING TEAM) and they said they were stopping the process because of my forgetfullness, I never got to give her the information she was asking for.

I have a theory about all this and it has nothing to do with my forgetting the past jobs, you see the day that HR questioned me I also spoke to the nurse about my "clearance" from my doctor and she asked me questions about the frequency of doctors visits to my psychiatrist and I told her, to which she answered well I need to speak to the physician on staff about all this and then I'll let you know if you have been "cleared"....in my mind, it is discrimination, it's too coincidental that this all happened within a day, how can HR go from everything is great just give me this oh nevermind we won't be offering employment now, also according to AZ law they weren't supposed to conduct a pre-employment physical without making an official offer of employment and also they were not supposed to ask about the severity of my illness, so think I have a case?

Technically if they wouldn't have cleared me due to my mental issues then it for sure would have been discrimination so to me they made up this BS excuse to save them from a potential lawsuit! Which I am seriously contemplating doing....it's me against the Gecko!.... :)

Words and Actions

2009-04-27T11:55:00.000-07:00

Words and Actions

This is a post by one of my very favorite bloggers that resonates with me and I think those of us that have children can relate to it as well as how we as moms and women may sometimes feel.

Love ya Janna!! :)

I've been bad

2009-04-23T10:15:00.000-07:00

I have been MIA I know, but I have a good excuse, I have been looking for a job and finally found one..a GREAT one. Now as soon as I get medical clearance proving I'm not a crazy person I will start in May..lol..yes that's right, I need medical FING clearance because I'm Bi-Polar. Who knew? LOL...So anyway, I'll jump through their hoops cause it really is a good job. School is going well, learning all about fallacies and deductive reasoning and inductive reasoning and my head is going to pop off, but otherwise all is well. So anyway, here is a "photo-dump" if you will...

Enjoy..

I just want to scream!

2009-04-16T18:57:00.000-07:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

There I feel better now :)

So I WON!

2009-04-13T16:43:00.000-07:00

A few days ago I posted about April Shower's contest to be a character in the Twilight Continues story..Edge of Night and I FREAKING WON!Click the button below to read the continuation of the Twilight Saga, warning..if you haven't read all 4 books then this will be a spoiler for you...Anyway, I'm hoping I get to be a bad vamp that gets to seduce Edward...hahahahahaha...

Easter

2009-04-10T18:23:00.000-07:00

This particular holiday makes me a little melancholy...I miss my grandma and my family, we used to get together and have a big dinner and now we're all spread out and my grandma passed 2 years ago this month so it's not the same...anyway...I hope that everyone, no matter your beliefs, enjoys this holiday weekend!

April Showers: April Showers Giveaway Month! (Be In The Next Twilight Book!)

2009-04-09T15:12:00.000-07:00

April Showers: April Showers Giveaway Month! (Be In The Next Twilight Book!): " "

One of the best giveaways ever! Well if you're a Twilight fan that is..which if you know me at all you know I'M OBSESSED!!! So, anywho, go check out April Showers cause she rocks!

Take Me Back Tuesdays...

2009-04-07T12:35:00.000-07:00

I found this fun Tuesday posting to do so I figured I would share with you! The rules are post a picture that takes you way back and then tell the story about the picture, then head on over to A Giveaway Addicted Mommy and sign the Mr. Linky :)

My picture that takes me way back:

I am the brunette, or the first girl and the other 2 girls were my BFF's in 9th grade...this picture is 16 years old... Why are we all dressed up? Well, we were going to a dance for school called Girls Reverse, we got to ask a boy and then pay for everything..lol..So, my BFF's and I all asked boys that were friends so we could do the fun groups date!

Turns out the boys we asked didn't really want to go so they stood us up...this was the picture before we knew we were being stood up.. It didn't dawn on us until about 9:30 pm that no one was coming to get us and we had missed pretty much the whole dance. We ended up calling a friend to come and get us and we went to eat a really late dinner just us girls and had fun anyway. What I wouldn't give to go back in time and give that A-Hole a piece of my mind..lol..

That's the story of this picture :) And I wish I looked that skinny still..lol.. :)

My diet Blog

2009-04-07T08:31:00.000-07:00

Hey friends follow me here if you'd like to see the fun adventure that is changing my eating life...hehehe...

My Lifestyle Change

You can see me cheat, I mean eat healthy all the time and I promise to show my progress and provide tips for anyone that needs them!

Have a terrific Tuesday!

A Good Day...Looks Like This...

2009-04-05T14:50:00.000-07:00

A day at our new favorite park, this time with Mark..as you can see from the arms in the picture below...hehehe..(what did you think those were MY arms..come on now..)

Nate's first time on the big boy slide all by himself!

I tried to get Mark to come down....but he just wouldn't do it!

Nate's first tunnel slide ride :)

Nate's first time hanging on the monkey bars...

And here I am enjoying the tire swing :)

I attempted to hang on the monkey bars too and Mark took pictures..but no way am I posting THOSE! :p

Changes

2009-04-03T09:02:00.000-07:00

I am thinking about deleting some of my past posts, I am of the mindset that since I have started a new blog, I should start fresh..what do you think?

I also get to make some heavy duty health changes, so if anyone knows some great recipes that are really healthy that don't include butter (the real kind) and sugar and flour and all the stuff that makes things super yummy..lol..type 2 diabetes has taken over my body, along with hypothyroidism, so that at least explains why I have THE hardest time losing weight.

So, in honor of my new found healthy life changes I need to get rid of the chocolate chips that are sitting on my counter begging to be baked...anyone care for some cookies? No contest, just whoever wants some cookies let me know and I'll send some your way, I need to get rid of the sugar, flour and chocolate chips... (heart breaking..tears...) Ok enough wallowing!

I will focus on the positive..losing weight and becoming healthier! So, off to stroll through bloggyland now....enjoy your day bloggy friends...

My favorite Blind Melon song..

Wordless Wednesday

2009-04-01T12:24:00.001-07:00

C'mon...smell'em....you know you want too......

Stellan's Story

2009-03-30T18:58:00.000-07:00

I came across this story through bloggy friends and felt compelled to share it...I hope that you will take a moment to read about baby Stellan...

My New Bloggy Home

2009-03-30T09:31:00.000-07:00

I have decided to start a new blog because I think I need a place where I can feel safe and unfortunately because of the events that took place 2 weeks ago my old blog is no longer a refuge for me. I have learned from my mistakes and will not be as open with a stranger, which is an irony to me because here I am in bloggyland being all open to you guys...I hope that this takes care of the crazy person and she finally leaves me alone.

So welcome to my new bloggy home...hope you'll stay a while..

This week

2009-03-27T20:12:00.000-07:00

Has been interesting to say the least...my daughter has been here for spring break, having her here is always bittersweet, it makes me so incredibly happy, but at the end of the week I know she goes back to her dad and it breaks a piece of my heart every time. She is a wonderful and super smart girl, I know every mom says that about their kids....lol..anyway, here's a bit of fun we had today..

Some bloggy Love

2009-03-26T13:10:00.000-07:00

Today is my dear friend The Rambler's day at SITS, so please head over to My Rambling Thoughts and say hello...she's awesome!!

Where am I? Who are you? How did you get here?

2009-03-25T15:01:00.000-07:00

Sometimes that's what runs through my head in the morning when I look in the mirror....Am I slowly losing my mind (well, I think that's been established)....Some days though the questions follow me around begging me for answers and I tell them that I have none, I am just me, I got here..to this point in my life, by a series of decisions and choices (the same thing?). Every now and then I can hear my grandma's voice, follow the right path...how will I know I'm on the right path....because the right path is sometimes full of potholes? There are always going to be questions and I will almost always be trying to find answers, like this one...what is it about a death sentence that makes someone get a life sentence? Why is it that someone has to be dieing to start living? That one plagued me last night at 3:30 am, no idea where it came from..(welcome to a part of my brain).

So, I keep seeing these posts in bloggyland about Wordless Wednesday or Wordful Wednesday, maybe I'll just call it Wordy Wednesday (for some reason I think I can see TTMVM's brain turning that into Woody Wednesday..lol...)..Anyway, people post a picture to let the pic do the talking, I am not able to do that so I'll just ramble and then post a picture....

Even Serial Killers Make Friends

2009-03-24T12:53:00.000-07:00

Ain't the truth! A really good friend of mine said that to me today when I was complaining about something and it made me laugh so I figured I would share. Not sure if it's more funny or more scarey...lol... Enjoy your day!

My education

2009-03-24T09:43:00.000-07:00

I am beginning to see why people have an almost negative view of taking college courses online...While I am having quite a bit of success, I am finding that my instructors and fellow students are hard for me to relate too. I am all for everyone having different views and opinions, but I am not ok with using the school as a way to promote your "spiritual writings about how to cure gambling addictions", esepcially when it has nothing to with the course and I am not ok with having an instructor that can't form complete sentences or provide adequate feedback. I am paying a lot for an education where I am basically teaching myself.

I'm frustrated because in this learning environment it's all about communication and when there's a breakdown or failure to communicate properly it makes it hard for me to stay motivated. I know my attitude is really blah right this minute so maybe it's just a bad day.....

New/Old Ink

2009-03-20T21:04:00.000-07:00

The outline was done back in November and I finally got started on the coloring process last weekend. Hopefully it will be complete by next weekend! If you missed the post about the significance of this particular tattoo please click here....

Before:

After:

Change of heart

2009-03-20T11:15:00.000-07:00

I have decided to open my blog up again, she has left me alone for a few days now and I have family that reads this so in order to make it more convenient I am open now.

Besides, if I live in fear than she wins right?! I will still have my comment moderator on, but I don't want to keep everyone out.

Thank you to my bloggyland friends for sending me virtual hugs and for being so supportive, it means alot to me.

Hope everyone has a great weekend :)

Going Private

2009-03-18T12:08:00.000-07:00

If you wish to still view my blog, please email me or send me a comment. I will contact my followers and send you an invite.

Sorry for any inconvenience this may cause.

Still stalking

2009-03-17T19:34:00.000-07:00

She won't quit so I am going to make my blog private. If you wish to be able to still view me please email me so I can put you on my preffered bloggers list.

FING B*&^CH! Yea I'm talking to you FING PSYCHO! You asked me to take the post down because you thought it was hurtful??? What about completely disrespecting me and my life, I tried to ignore you, I tried asking politely, I tried demanding and now you just will NOT QUIT!

So, to my friends

I have a Stalker

2009-03-17T11:02:00.000-07:00

Defined by Wikipedia:

Stalking is a controversial pejorative term applied to the behaviour of individuals (and perhaps to bodies of persons) towards others. It relates to a pattern of repeated, unwanted attention, harassment, and contact. In many countries, stalking is classified as a criminal offence.

So we all know that out here in bloggyland it's easy to view everyone's stuff, it's like the domino effect, one follows one and another and another and so on. Well, I have gone to as many lengths as I possibly can to prevent this person from viewing my stuff and SHE still will not stop, so she is now classified as a stalker. Yes that's right, A SHE! and fyi some of my bloggy friends, she's now following you, JananaBee and My Little World, if you want to know who she is please email me and I will tell who so you can block her if you want.

Here's the deal, I met this girl in one of my online courses, she added me as a friend on Facebook and we chatted about school. Then one day our convo turned to our life experiences and things of that nature and I thought she was a pretty cool girl. She lives in another state, doesn't have a lot of friends, blah blah, we exchanged phone numbers, started texting and talking on the phone. I thought I had found a friend to connect with and then something happened. She became obsessive, if I didn't call her back or text her back right away she would send like 15 texts or call my phone 4-5 times, so I finally asked her to please stop doing that, she said she would. She didn't. So last week I finally told her to leave me alone, I didn't want to talk to her anymore. Again she apologized and said she wouldn't contact me. AND YET AGAIN she continued to call, text, email, follow and comment on my blogs, tried to talk to me on facebook, any time I gave any kind of attention to her it just made her do it more, so last night I had enough and deleted her and blocked her. Well, as you can see my blog is public and if you look at my FEEDJIT tracker she can still access me, by the way she's from MONMOUTH MAINE. So, in an effort to thwart her I am posting this blog to tell her if she doesn't stop I will take legal action and I will report her and I will tell the school about her behavior.

I have been stalked before, about 8 years ago when I lived in Las Vegas. This man, who still to this day haunts my brain, and now especially, made my life hell. He found out where I worked, he found out where my bf at the time worked, pretended to be a florist to find out my address and sent me flowers to my HOME, he showed up at my work one day after I switched jobs and I had him fired and you know what stinks, the cops in vegas wouldn't do anything about it.

I have enough anxiety issues and don't need the constant worry anymore if this chic is going to be following me around in cyberspace for the rest of my life. It stinks, she's in one of my classes this semester and I hate it! In all reality I'm also frightened. But I'm more pissed than anything. You would think that if you ask someone to leave you alone, they should comply. Most of all though I feel like an idiot for even thinking that I could be her friend. There were so many red flags, I just didn't listen to myself and then when I did follow my gut, it's now turned ugly.

Obsess Much? Me? Noooo

2009-03-14T11:55:00.000-07:00

I lie, I'm obsessed with RP, I admit it (sorry Mark). I bought the Twilight Soundtrack last weekend and have been listening to it over and over and there's a song by Rob Pattinson called "Never Think", so I decided this morning I would search youtube for a video. Well I found a ton of RP videos of him singing and well, it has done nothing but fuel the fire..lol..So for fun and for fellow obsessed RP fans...here is what I found..This one was done by fan, but the music is RP singing..

Friday Favorites My first time

2009-03-13T18:08:00.000-07:00

Sounded bad right?..lol...get your minds back in bloggyland! I am joining in Jananabee's Friday Favorites Carnival! I am a little slow in getting started, she has been doing this for a few weeks now, so go on over and see her favorites and visit the others that are participating, she's set up Mr. Linky so everyone can link up!

Now for my favorites that got me through the week....

(No particular order)

1. The SITS Spring Fling- That was seriously a ton of fun to do and I made some new bloggy land friends in the process which is really what SITS and BITS is all about. I tried to win some contests, but to no avail..lol..the only person I ever win from is Kalei!

2. Arizona weather- It really has been quite nice and yesterday's trip to the park with Nate was much needed. For more about that see the post below :).

3. Grey's Anatomy- for providing me drama outside the real world, oh and The Real World- Brooklyn, yes, I admit it, I watch it so what! It's so fun to watch the 20-somethings living in this giant warehouse with funky furniture and making money for being pretty and "real". There's a Mormon guy on their this season who is out to prove to the world that being LDS is fun! He's good at it! :)

4. Coffee- This will always be on my list of favorites because I can't function without it.

5. All the people that stop by and leave me comments, comments are my favorite thing because it means people really like me..right? Hehehe...

6. Also my boy and his new skill..see video :)

I'm sure I will come up with a better list next Friday. Right now I am in a fog and need to eat dinner! Have a great weekend everyone!! :)

Fun at the park!

2009-03-12T15:38:00.000-07:00

Today was a beautiful day (please don't hate me all you people that live where it's cold...I will gladly change places with you at any time!) so I took Nate to a park near our house. He had soooooooo much fun and so did I, I even went down the slide with him! (and didn't get stuck..which I was so afraid would happen..lol) I think we will make this a daily trip or maybe an every other day trip! Here's my boy having some fun..he wouldn't really look at the camera he was so excited..lol....

My 2 Cents about American Idol

2009-03-12T11:18:00.000-07:00

So, I am a fan of American Idol, I don't usually post about the shows I watch, however sometimes I just feel the need to give my opinion. This season there are some very talented boys and girls and I already have my favorites. There is a twist this season though, the judges now have the ability to save someone from being eliminated from the competition. They can only save one person, one time and thats it. They implemented this new rule because of when Chris Daughtry and some others got booted off that "should have or could have" won the competition. I don't know about any of you, but I for one think that Daughtry is having a better career than if he would have won Idol?! Anyway, 2 people got kicked off last night and I think it will be interesting to see if the judges decide to save anyone and who it will be....So, for this season I will give my 2 cents about the contestants. Here are my favorites so far.... courtesy of You Tube..

The Winner is.....

2009-03-11T09:43:00.000-07:00

Here is a copy and paste from Random.org :) Congrats to Roni from Stacy Family In Dallas! Head over to her blog and congratulate her! Thanks to everyone who stopped by yesterday! And thanks especially to my new followers! Have a happy Wednesday!!

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SITS Spring Fling Day!!

2009-03-10T09:06:00.000-07:00

**Rules..Leave a comment you get one entry, become a follower, get 2 entries!**
**Contest ends tonight at 11:59 pm AZ (CST) time**

Hey Ya'll Head on over to SITS and participate in the Spring Fling! There are sooooooo many contests and prizes your eyes will go buggy!!

Now for my Give-A-Way.....

Ok so I am a little late getting this post up, but for my give-a-way today leave me a comment and you'll be entered to win a dozen HOME-MADE chocolate chip cookies (or any cookie of your choosing), I am a fabulous baker so don't worry..they'll be good!! Also I am giving away 2 purses that have been just sitting around in my closet and should go to a good home! **Pics are posted** The larger black purse is made by Kenneth Cole -Reaction** I'll post Pics in a bit, just wanted to get this out here for all the SITS participants!! Happy Spring Fling Hopping!!

So I decided to give 2 purses away! :)

First Semester...wow

2009-03-09T12:28:00.000-07:00

This week is the end of my first semester back in college....Has 9 weeks really gone by so fast?! I have 2 projects due by Sunday, a Power Point presentation and a 1000-1250 word Survival Guide Essay! Needless to say I will be a bit busy! However I will still participate in the SITS Spring Fling tomorrow! I'll be bloggyland hoppity hoppin, should be a great time! Oh and I will be doing a giving away so check back in the AM. (No, mark I am not giving money away..I am giving away cookies and one of my purses that I never ever use).

Hope everyone has a happy Monday!

What Have I been doing all weekend?

2009-03-08T09:25:00.000-07:00

Ok so maybe not...but a girl can dream can't she.......................

Friday Freakouts!

2009-03-06T10:41:00.000-08:00

I have decided to designate every Friday as the day to freak out! If you have something you'd like to freak out about by all means feel free to join in on the fun!

My 2 Cents

2009-03-04T09:39:00.000-08:00

I watched The Bachelor all season long, I watched him send some great girls packing and waited impatiently for the return of Deanna...only to have this season be the worst Bachelor season in the history of the show! Suuuuurrreeee Jason wasn't put up to this, right?! That would be a BIG FAT NO, I firmly believe that he was so put up to this and that ABC did it for ratings because of how lame the show is becoming. How many times you do a show about this girl or this boy "fallin in love" on TV with all these fantasy dates and high drama only to have what maybe 2 relationships actually work out of all the seasons! So what do they do they concoct this scheme with Mr. Ahole Mesnick and say you have to get engaged to Melissa if you want Molly. Oh and we're going to bring Deanna back at the end to throw some BS at you and clip it altogether to trick the unsuspecting viewers. I think it's really sad that ABC did what they did and even worse because Melissa looked like she really got hurt, but who knows at this point, I think everyone knew ahead of time. Molly says they're real people, not just actors I think that's complete BS too. Don't you know you get paid when you go on a "reality" show..hmmm sounds to me like you're acting then, the better you are the more likely you are to be kept around, The more money you make! I'm also really sick of ABC taking the "broken hearted" girl or guy and making them the NEXT bachelor/bachelorette, it's stupid. In my opinion everyone should boycott ABC an d not watch The Bachelorette in May. Make their ratings go down the tubes. Ok, I'm done with my rant....all I have left to say is I'm pissed that I wasted so much time watching the dumb show!

A Sunny Saturday

2009-02-28T16:32:00.000-08:00

It's 85 degrees today. It's a beautiful day outside. I did some shopping, found my boy some shoes and of course as I was leaving a pair just suddenly jumped out and started calling my name (yes, in my world shoes talk to me)...so I bought them...very cute wedge flip flops at Kohl's. I am in a better mood today than I was for my last post :). I am currently in the process of figuring out Twitter and I am also co-authoring with Young Momma from Perfect Pen over at Anxiety Ridden Mania. We need some friends so head on over and check us out! Our blog is mainly a support blog and a kind of vent blog, we both have "issues" so if you'd like to subscribe to us that would be great :).

I am also planning on getting a bloggy face lift, I have fallen in love with April @ http://www.aprilshowersblogdesign.com/, she does some awesome work so please go check her out, some of her work can be seen on her blog, or The Rambler, or The Adams Family. And once I finally determine a budget hopefully MINE!

I will be doing another give-a-way for the SITS Spring Fling so make sure you come back next saturday to enter to win some of my fabulous chocolate chip cookies anda purse (slightly used, but in excellent condition). **If you don't happen to like chocolate chip cookies I am willing to make your favorite, I am a fabulous baker if I do say so myself!** In honor of give-a-ways, make sure you go over and see Jananabee, and The Scattered Mind of a tattooed MInivan Mom, they are all doing some great give-a-ways!! :)

Hope you are all having a Sunny Saturday!!

***Some random pics***

Tankers smile :)

He's ready for his bike!

I just love this pic...

Scarey Times

2009-02-26T14:34:00.000-08:00

I'm so mad right now I could just spit! The economy is so horrible in my hometown right now that almost everyone I know, family and friends, have been hurt by it. One of my close friends was laid off today from his job, after being sick for 2 weeks and promised by his BOSS that he wouldn't get the boot, he got the boot today! ANother of my close friends, her husband got the boot too a while back and another close friend has had to take a 12% pay cut. I know that our new Pres is doing all kinds of new stuff and passing tax cuts and giving money to this and that, but so far, it's not doing one bit of good to anyone I know. We have had our own hurt because of this crap, Mark is not allowed over time, which is a big loss, we're doing ok without it so I won't complain. I just wish it would be better already, I just wish there was a brighter light at the end of the tunnel for the people I care about that are getting hit the hardest.

All I can do is pray and thank the man upstairs that we're alright. My thoughts and prayers are with those that are not so fortunate....it has to get better, it just has to!

Twilight anyone?

2009-02-25T15:10:00.000-08:00

If you just can't wait til March 21, 2009, like I couldn't, feel free to watch the movie right here! Great quality I wouldn't post garbage, I mean c'mon, this is Edward we're talking about!! I mean Twilight..hehehe...Enjoy :)

***By the way, click on the menu bar for Full Screen, otherwise you'll miss half the movie since it won't all fit onto my blog..LOL..***

The Naked House!

2009-02-24T14:30:00.000-08:00

What is it about toddlers that makes them want to run around naked ALL the time? I feel like my boy should be living at a nudist colony! I'm contsantly chasing him around trying to put clothes back on him, ok maybe not constantly, but still! It must be so nice to run around uninhibited, me- I am afraid to walk in front of the mirror without clothes or at least a towel on, this one time I was walking by a window and caught a glimpse out of the corner of my eye and thought someone was following me..turned out it was my own @ss! I won't even look at my shadow, I'm afraid of it! Anyway, enough about me. ..... This is about my naked boy and all his wonderful poses that he just has to do when he's in the buff...so for your amusement on this super HOT Fat Tuesday....

My Heart Hurts

2009-02-21T18:16:00.000-08:00

I just received this pic yesterday

This is a picture of my mom's head stone. My Uncle (her brother) had it made and it will be placed next to my grandmas in Utah. I think sometimes I must be in denial, I go along everyday and there's a part of my head that knows she's gone, but it's like I just push it away and now to see this, it makes it really real, over and over again I'm reminded she's gone and I'm all alone. I can't breathe. I can't see. I miss her. I'm so tired of being strong, I'm so tired of holding it all together. I'm tired of being angry. I'm just tired. I know that time is supposed to lessen the pain and I'm sure in a hundred years or so I'll feel better or a little less tired I hope.

Janana Bee's 200th Post GIve-A-Way!!

2009-02-21T08:45:00.000-08:00

My 200th Post & Giveaway Go show her some love and you'll be enterted to win some fabu prizes!!

And the WINNERS are......

2009-02-21T07:32:00.000-08:00

Oh you mean I didn't tell you there would be more than one? Well there is....and they are.....
DRUM ROLL PLEASE (and Dj Jazzy Jeff and the Fresh Prince just rolled through my head...)...

First Place is...............The Young Momma @ Perfect Pen!

Second Place is...........Sandy @ The Adams Family!

Third Place is..............The Tattooed Minivan Mom @ Scattered Mind of a Tattooed Minivan Mom!

If you're wondering to yourself why there are more than one well it's because I said so, it's my contest I can do what I want and if I think everyone, I mean 3, should win then that's t hat! Ok, how did I get these 3 lovely ladies, well I went to Random.Org and I typed in the list of entries and hit randomize, and these 3 were the top!

Thanks to everyone for entering and for showing me some love for my first 100 posts! I kinda like this whole giving thing, maybe I'll start doing just random give-a-ways for no reason...hmm stay tuned for more on that! :) Oh yea did you know you can watch Twilight on your PC for free?? I learned this tid bit of info last night and am now addicted to tvshack.net!

For all of you who entered please email me your address so I can snail mail you something just for stopping by and for the winners please tell me your favorite Bath and Bodyworks Scents and Young Momma I need to know your favorite Yankee Candle Scent and where you'd like your $25 GIftCard from! Thanks again everyone! Now go stop by all the other blogs on my blogroll, there are some super dooper give-a-ways going on, apparently a bunch of milestones are happening this week/weekend!!

Email info to: mesahippychic03@aol.com

Last Day to Enter!

2009-02-20T11:21:00.000-08:00

Just a quick reminder: Today is the last day to enter my 100th Post Give-A-Way!! Scroll down 2 posts and stop by to leave a comment or 5 to be entered! Have a happy Friday and Good Luck!!! By the way if you linky loved me for the give-a-way don't forget to let me know so you getyour extra entries! I'll announce the winner tomorrow!

Do all puppies poop this much? And eat ROCKS?

2009-02-18T08:13:00.000-08:00

Our puppy, Tankers, has decided he'd rather poop everywhere- except outside! Every night/morning Mark wakes up to poop in the kennel where he sleeps (not Mark, the puppy..what kind of wife do you think I am! Gosh!) and whats ironic is that he won't poop in the front he poops in the back and most of the time the poop has rocks in it...GROSS! Ok so I'm sure you guys wanted to know all about this right? No? Too bad! I have to vent because it's driving me crazy...oh he also poops under the table and behind chairs! I try to get him outside as much as possible and sometimes it works, but it's mostly night time and early morning and now PUDGE is in heat! Ahhhhhhhh!!! (God, grant me the strength) He really is sooooo cute though...despite all the poop...

They share I swear!

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***I just found this post through SITS and it made me laugh so hard that I had to share it with you! Check it out if you need a laugh too..http://thecreativejunkie.com/2008/05/23/twenty-things-every-mom-needs-to-know/.***

Is there such a thing as "Normal"?

2009-02-17T16:07:00.000-08:00

I am trying to figure out what "normal" means.